The last couple of weeks have been a whirlwind and I apologize for not getting this last blog out sooner.
The challenge is over. . . .and words can't even describe how happy I am with where I am and the obstacles I went through to get here.
The last few weeks of the challenge where tough for me, I was letting my business get the best of me and wasn't in the best place mentally and emotionally. (Which is why you didn't hear much from me) Staying in a positive mind frame was even more challenging and by the end of this challenge I felt like I had gone back to where I had started. Self sabotaging and self limiting beliefs at its best. . . I thought once I had silenced them that I wouldn't have to ever deal with them again and boy was I wrong. But what I took from the last few weeks is that just like working out and eating healthy, retraining your thought process is a process as well. Which I already knew but needed to learn again. A humbling experience for sure!
I learned a lot about myself this last 90 days. Consistency blogging everyday, staying on top of my workouts, and remaining positive about where I am on my journey. It's easy getting caught up in everyday life, for me it was getting caught up in my business and everything that comes with it. Everyday I was forced fo refocus my energy on the positive things in my life, because like I said in earlier post speaking negatively about this process just wasn't a option.
It's not an all or nothing process, in the past I could easily do an all or nothing change but it would only last about 30 days I would get great results but they never lasted. Which again, I knew but needed to learn again. Funny how lessons keep popping up when you need them most. Self love and Positive self talk, this is still on the plate for learning for sure, but I'm closer to it then I was 90 days ago! This is what got me through the hard day's most of the time ;) I remember jumping on the treadmill and looking over into the mirror and seeing my legs and the cellulite that I have on them. My mind would instantly go to "Ugh gross, I wish that wasn't there." Followed by "well it is, so keep doing what you are doing and one day it won't be there." Then I would visualize what I wanted to see in the mirror instead of what I was actually seeing. I wear a lot of short shorts now because I don't care that my legs aren't perfect I love them and I know they are a work in progress.
This whole challenge was very humbling for me. When I became I trainer I thought I had to have the picture perfect body. You know the pictures I'm talking about, the ones you see all over social media with the woman that have great abs and a fantastic booty. Well for some reason in my head I thought that if I didn't look like that then I wasn't a good trainer. Actually admitting that to the world makes me see how ridiculous that is now. Because it's not about how I look, it's about what I know and how I makes clients feel when they are training with me that makes me a good trainer. Among other things ;) The fact that I was learning this right along with my clients was the humbling part, I'm not some wonder woman I'm just like everyone else and my results come the same way as everyone else's. Through consistency and dedication.
I put on a pair of short shorts I haven't worn since last summer and instantly knew my body had changed even though I really hadn't thought it did. My shorts where loser in the waist, and a little more snug in the booty and leg area thank you squats, lunges, Kettlebell swings!! I'm still rocking my 4 pack abs, when I'm eating properly. It's funny how extra sodium and sugar can make them almost disappear in a day or two ;) I'm feeling great! I'm sleeping better, I have more energy and I LOVE MY BODY!